My Life: According to Me

Tonight I went for a run for 20 min and then biked for 10 min did some abs and now I am going to go climbing on an indoor course and do a few of the runs they have. :) Beast mode activated. HOOYAH!!!! :) 

By march 24th I want to be able to fit comfortably in my size 9 jeans! I have to just kick my butt into gear and workout at least a full 1-2 hours 3-5 times a week and really start eating clean! I am going down to Las Vegas in march and I want to look smokin when I see my boyfriend who is stationed down there at the Air Force base. I want to feel good in a swim suit and have a strong lean body. My ultimate goal is to run the Tough Mudder this summer just to prove to myself that I can do it! What are your goals????

He said, “I love you.”
“I am not ready” I say.
“That’s ok, I plan on being in your life for a while so I can wait. Only say it if you mean it though.”
“I would never lie to you about that.”
Am I ready for this? Being single has been so nice. But with him gone I feel single and all I want to do is be with him, but why am I not ready for him to become my boyfriend? Why do t I want a label of being his girlfriend? Isn’t this what I have wanted all along? Is it because I wanted love to work and I tried so hard for us to last forever that I am afraid to try again?? Why am I afraid of what others will think? Why do I have such a hard time letting people know what he means to me. Why can’t I just be his girlfriend? Am I hoping for someone else? He is like my Barney, I can’t and shouldn’t tame that. It seems like if there was a girl from his past that wanted him he would probably go for her. Why me? Was I his last resort? Most guys view me as a safe relationship… Why can’t I let go and start something with him?? Why do I care about what others think?? Why does it seem like he wants to move so fast into this relationship? Ugh… So many things in my brain… I like him, I like how he holds my face when he kisses me, I like how he I as little taller than me and he can pick me up. I like that he makes me smile and holds me tight at night. I like the way he acted when he met my family and how my friends get along with him. I like that he is up for adventure and just likes walking outside even when it is cold. So why am I so afraid to let him in? Why can’t I forget about the past and move forward and take a chance and not be so guarded? Sorry if you have read this, it probably doesn’t make sense but I had to get it all off my chest so I can move forward to figure things out.

So I figured out a few things today, I found my ex’s cockyness, shirt, unshaven face attractive…. Ugh NO!!!! I don’t like him!!! I have a guy that I am kinda with who I like a bunch!!!! He looks skinny as well… Which made me sad for him and the loon he had when I said goodbye in class was this tired face like he had given up on something… Defeated… This was the first time I have sympathized for him in almost two years.. I have lived to envy him and his travels but today I just wanted to to ask if he was ok. Next, I learned that waiting for that special guy to come home is a pain but worth it!!! I really can’t wait for him to come home!!! I hope all goes well, what if he asked me out!? Could I handle a long distance relationship forever? He would be moving base to base… And he is like Barney from HIMYM.. Party, party party, can I keep up? Next, nair does a sucky job at getting ALL the hair off your legs… I feel patches and I sprayed that shit good!!! Last, I am tired, I have been tired, so I shall sleep! Night.

My friend and I got a 45 min cardio workout in today! Feeling great! A little tired but I now I need to really get down and do some homework…. Kinda lame on a Friday night but its Midterms so I have a few papers and projects to whip out by next week! :P I have a black and white photography paper and presentation to finish, a psych paper to start and get articles for, and a take home test that I need to finish that I am halfway through. It seems like a lot but I want to finish the photography stuff and the take home test tonight (just took a quiz for my online psych class, totally got a 90!! 14/15, I will take that!)

I am also very interested with what a certain boy will be doing tonight. This is is first week down at his new base down in Vegas and I think tonight will be his first night down on the strip. And he will probably be partying hard tonight. We arent in a relationship or anything at all, we arent going to start dating until he comes home in november (if all goes well which I hope things do). But we will see, I have to just worry about little ol me and get my homework done… yay…. 

Ok so I found a pretty crazy WOD that I thought I would share!! And all you need is a deck of cards and a stop watch :) If you are feeling crazy do this- FOR TIME try out Hit the Deck. Spades= Squats, Hearts= Burpees, Diamonds=Pushups, Clubs=Situps. So if you got a 6 of clubs that would be 8x situps, and if you got an 8 of hears that would be 8x burpees, etc. Face cards are 10 reps and Aces are 11 reps!! :) I still have to try this out but I think it will be ridiculous. Good luck! 

Scuba diving for 2 hours!! :) I am sad that tonight is my last class but I can’t wait to do my open water training. Since it is so cold out I am not sure if I will be able to this year or if I will have to wait till May. But I will burn about 400- 500 calories tonight! :) Always a plus! 

What are some crazy workouts that you like to do?!

So any big plans for your weekend??? Let me know!!!
I am so pumped right now because my friend and I are going to sign up for a indoor sprint!!! Swim, bike, and run! Then this sprint I an gonna do a full sprint! And suggestions for someone starting to train for sprints and tris???

I just wish I could have toned up a little better!!! I have about a month so I am gonna try!! Maybe working out twice a day somedays if I dont have homework :p what do you all suggest???? He has been working out a lot and I want to look good too!! :p